The Joshua Factor

Part 2

On this day, I had made up my mind to do what I had been secretly planning to do for months. I was going to end my life by driving my car in front of an oncoming train and making it look like an accident, as there were no guard rails at this crossing. The intense pain would be over and all the hurt would stop. As the train approached, I felt a sense of relief. Then suddenly from deep within my being, I felt something. It caught me totally by suprise as I hadnt felt anything but numbness inside for months. As the blast of the horn placed the train almost in front of me, my mouth spontainiously opened and words seemingly poured out as if someone else was saying this to me. I was completely taken back as I heard myself cry out,”Lord please send someone who can understand what’s going on inside of me and help me get better!”

These words saved my life becasue those words envoked a seed of hope that made me begin to think that maybe just maybe, there was someone who could understand and help me get better.

(Can I just share right here, that 90% of all people who are clinically depressed and suicidal that seek help get better and never go on to attempt suicide again!)

Keep watching next week for another part to this amazing story.  I pray you are being blessed by this story.